No hangover, whew . . .

Wow, I did a number on my pnts yesterday - I wasn't sure how many pnts Disarono was.. but... I've counted it at like.. 15 or something. ~Shrugs~ I drank an entire glass last night, needless to say I was a little tipsy and slept pretty deep for most of the night. Big thankyou goes out to Dan who put up with listening to me on the phone.. I'm sure it was a real treat. Even now, as I sit here replaying last night to make sure I wasn't too big of an ass I realize my tone and level of voice might have been a bit high - sorry baby. You may ask yourself 'Why would you drink alone, Becca?' Well, answer is pretty simple really - I'm feeling extremely stressed out right now, and thought 'Why can't I have a freakin drink, everyone else in the world friggin drinks - so there!' I really don't drink that often. This past Christmas was the most I have drank in like.. 4 years combined Heh. Anyway, it did lighten the load on my shoulders for about five minutes last night.. so that was something at least. I'm kinda feeling tired and lazy at the moment, depressed a lil maybe and so I think I'm going to go lay around for awhile, wallow in my stress for no good reason until I muster up enough motivation to do something today. I was in the middle of an update for Luca's Blog last night when I decided to have a glass of the Disarono.. so.. I'll have to go finish that some time today also. Anyway, everyone have a great weekend - I'll try to post more later.

Out!
Becca.


Food List:
Crunchers - 6pnts.
Egg - 2pnts.
Bacon - 2pnts.
Butter - 1pnt.
WW Bread (2) - 1pnt.
Pizza - 11pnts.
Cookies - 6pnts.
Popcicle - 1pnt.
Lets just say... I've eaten more.. and I'm out of pnts... Not a good weekend.

29 / 28 pnts used.
1 / 1 activity pnts used.
13 Flex pnts left.

I thought it was Saturday!

It's not, it's only Friday - which means I have to go to work - Bleh.

11:57am Update:
Ok, I was STARVING today. This morning, by mistake, as I was tearing my banana off the bunch and I tore it open. So, staring at the exposed banana I realized I couldn't take it to work - by the time I got there, it would be brown and gross. So, I ate it at 7:30am. I never eat that early, I don't eat until I get to work at around 8:30am. Which means, it threw my entire morning off. I ended up eating that banana, and then toast when I got to work, and then a couple arrowroot cookies because I was STARVING and finally now it's lunch and I couldn't have eaten my eggsalad sandwich any quicker if I tried. Bleh. There's news on the upgrades, I'll tell you in another update - Laura is about to call me to go to Tims and pick up a tea!

12:30pm Update:
I'm back from Tims, drinking my tea as we speak - I munched down a chocolate chip cookie. Only 4 pnts, it was so good. Worth it, though, I have to admit I'm still hungry - - - what the Hell!? Why. I've eaten and now I should be full, freakin banana has screwed up my entire day. Anyway, the reason I'm posting again is to talk about the upgrades. I got an email from Margareta (sales chicka) after I emailed her freaking out the other day and she was SO comforting in the email. She said that I'd definately be given time to review and consider the upgrades before deciding and that she was happy that I brought this problem to her attention. She even offered to book me a different appointment with Catherine that would better fit my schedule, but I told her there wasn't a reason to now - since I've already booked the time off at work and so has my mother - whom I'm dragging along with me. Anyway, nothing really NEW has happened, except that Margareta has tried to calm me down and assured me that I wont have to make any rash decisions. Whew. Now I just have to survive the Bridal Shower for Lori this weekend and a whole level of stress will be removed from my shoulders. (I'm so SO not the freakin wedding person type.. ) She'll be surprised though, at least a bit. She knows about the actual party though. Anyway, everyone have a good day - be good. I can tell today is going to be a battle to stay on pnts for me.

Out!
Becca.

Food List:
Banana - 2pnts.
WW Bread (2) - 1pnt.
Butter - 1pnt.
Eggs (2) - 4pnts.
WW Bread (2) - 1pnt.
Mayo - 1pnt.
Tims Tea - 1pnt.
Tims Cookie (yum) - 4pnts.
Tortilla Wraps - 4pnts.
Mayo - 2pnts.
Butter - 1pnt.
Chicken Fingers - 5pnts.
Chips - 9pnts.
Popcicle - 1pnt,
Disarono (sp?) - 15pnts.

49 / 28 pnts used.
3 / 3 activity pnts used.
14 Flex pnts left.

Stressful Thursday.

So, here's the deal.
I get a call from Katherine re: the upgrades yesterday. She informs me that my appointment is on May 16th @12:15pm. I'm like 'Oh, so I guess I don't get to pick my appointment day..' and she goes 'No, it's assigned to you based on the date you purchased. ' Fine. I'm a little concerned, now I have to take the day off, drive to Cambridge, and meet with this woman - I then decide to ask 'So, when do I have to make the final decisions re: the upgrades?' she replies with 'Within the two hour appointment.' I'm like.. WHAT?! how the HELL am I supposed to have my FIRST look at these upgrades and the costs and decide right then and there what I can afford, what I want and everything?! Who does that?! So irritated, not only by the fact that it took her so long to get back to me (apparently she was in a car accident) but also because of all this news I say.. "Alright, how do you pay for the upgrades?" Well, apparently you can pay her ON the day for the upgrades, or you might have like.. a two week window, she wasn't sure. Are ya kiddin me?!!!! Now I'm seriously pissed off, and go, I've been asking about these upgrades all along, it's kinda hard to decide everything in a two hour period without being able to even KNOW what the options are before the meeting - will there be any way to see, read about, view costs... something.. of the upgrades BEFORE the meeting? To which she replies 'Well, I might. If enough people ask for it, I might decide to gather something together so people can come in before their appointments to see the upgrades, but as of right now, there isn't anything. I'll write down that you'd like to though. I'm taking next week off because of the accident last week, and then I guess I'll see how it feels - because that's the most important thing. ~giggle~" To which I reply with dead silence for several seconds and finally say.. "Will it be open on weekends to view if you do find the time to put it together?" Well, apparently that also depends on if other people request a weekend... .. can I fucking have the numbers of the other people so I can give them the heads up so I can avoid taking ANOTHER vacation day from work and driving up to Cambridge IF she decides to do this?!!! Clearly, I'm irritated. Is it just me, or is this insane to ask someone to do this? Sure, I have an extra $10,000 for unknown upgrades laying around. I've been begging for more information on everything since the day I signed the forms for this condo.. this is just bullshit in my view.

Sorry for the rant, but it's thrown me into a full blown panic about everything. I mean, how the Hell am I supposed to swing all these upgrades, the new car and the freakin condo? I'm not sure anymore.. I'm just feeling a little dumped on with all this information - and her lack of prep is driving me mental. It wouldn't be so bad if I could see and read about the upgrades BEFORE my meeting with her, I'd have it planned out then before hand and not go into it blind.

Anyway, I'm going to get going.. I think I might walk over to Tims for a tea or something. Hope you are all having a good day.

Oh, and for those of you who are interested, (mainly Suz I think, heh) I've taken your advice (Suz) and created a Blog for Luca (My RP Character) while Christian is in Torpor (and while you move to Cali.) Hope the move is going alright chicka, miss you!

P.S. Sarah > How're the new kitties behaving?
Out!
Becca.


Food List:
Banana - 2pnts.
Turkey Burger - 5pnts.
WW Bread (2) - 1pnt.
Butter - 1pnt.
BBQ Crunchers - 1pnt.
Tims Tea - 1pnt.
Chicken Sandwich - 9pnts.
Chalet Sauce - 1pnt.
Soup - 2pnts.
Mayo - 2pnts.
Crunchers - 4pnts.
Popcicle - 1pnt.

28 / 28 pnts used.
2 / 3 activity pnts used.
35 Flex pnts left.

Moose and Meese.

Definition:
Meese n. pl. of MOOSE.
(Don't ask.. heh.)

Last night, Dan called and after not hearing from the boy for two days (on the phone I mean) I was excited to hear the words 'I'll be stopping in about an hour, you free?' but those words never came. Infact, the opposite did, 'I stopped about five minutes ago, there was no where to park..' So, my dreams were dashed. Though that story has nothing to do with the image above, the image above gives you something visual to reference while hearing the theory of the Universe that Dan and I were discussing last night after an intense debate over the American Economy. (Although we were agreeing, somehow it felt like we were debating for the 2hours - very strange, but it was fun either way. Shhh... don't tell Dan though.)

So, back to the Theory. The way I think it went by what I can remember from the late night conversation was that Blackholes in the universe are slowly sucking everything into them - and everytime they suck things in, they grow and expand - only to increased their gravitational pull, sucking even more things in and expanding even further (you get the idea). So, then, Dan and I decided we should study this by tossing Meese into the black hole, to study how it expands and such. Eventually, of course, the Meese would force the Blackhole to expand and everything would suddenly get out of control and the hole would expand and totally suck in the entire Universe, all the planets, stars, etc... the question then remains, what happens inside the Blackhole? My theory, and Dans perhaps, is that as things are being sucked into this Blackhole, they are actually reappearing on the otherside and creating an entirely NEW Universe, but really, it's the SAME universe, just in a different time or space because of the Blackhole. So, in theory, I could be writting this exact same Blog entry in the new Universe in the year 2006 and be going through this all over again moments before the Blackhole would swallow us up only to start our lives all over again. Which of course means, everything is repeated, the world is on a constant repeative loop.... ... .. ... .


Food List:
WW Bread (2) - 1pnt.
Peanutbutter - 2pnts.
Chicken Potpie - 12pnts.
Swiss Sauce - 1pnt.
Mashed Potatos - 1pnt.
Chicken Fingers - 7pnts.
Potatos - 2pnts.
BBQ Sauce - 1pnt.
Healthy Fudge - 2pnts.

28 / 28 pnts used.
0 / 3 activity pnts used.
35 Flex pnts used.

Why am I so busy?!

Hey everyone, it's early, no time to really write at the moment but I wont have much time at work to do it during breaks today either I don't think - so, I wanted to get my food list up and posted since I'm keeping track on here with my pnts and such. That WW Calculator finally seriously took a nose dive about a week back and I gave it to my friend to give it back to the WW she bought it from. I'll be getting a refund in 6 - 8 weeks or something like that. Not exactly sure WHY it's going to take that long? (That's as bad as the phone company) but nothing I can really do about it anyway - so whatever.

So, less than a month and Dan will be here - Eep. I had planned on getting a new car before then, to gloat and what not, but that doesn't seem like it will be happening any time soon. Lori's bridal shower is this weekend (only reason I mention it, is because I know she already knows) and I just can't seem to find time to do enough research - PLUS everytime I think I've figured something out Daniel there comes up with something even more complicated and tells me to look at a whole knew world of things. Have I mentioned I hate cars? ~Rolls her eyes~ Alright, seriously, I have to get to work now. Be good everyone.

Out!
Becca.

Food List:
Eggs (3) - 6pnts.
WW Bread (4) - 2pnts.
Mayo - 1pnt.
Butter - 1pnt.
Crunchers - 2pnts.
Turkey Sheppards Pie - 7pnts.
Chips - 7pnts.
Mini Eggs - 1pnt.
Popcicle - 1pnt.

28 / 28 pnts used.
0 / 2 activity pnts used.
35 Flex pnts left.

Another Monday.

Sorry everyone, for not posting anything except my food for the day until now. Today wasn't the greatest of days for me. Woke up this morning from a dream or something, which threw everything off, and then I didn't feel good for the better part of the day. Got NOTHING done at work, only one application entered and complete (managed to mess it up in the process too) and ten TEN sent back to the brks because they were wrong. Usually I'm not irritated by that, but when I only get one complete it's kinda a pain in the ass. Still don't feel that great at the moment, couple of things getting on my nerves. Hours at work will prolly be changing for me, we'll see. The crustini for lunch was bad or something, not sure what was the deal there.. but as a result I ended up going to McDonalds, again. Suz and I are in the middle of putting Christian (Vampy) into Torpor in our RP - which isn't a big deal to those of you who don't RP, but in the story line it's a big deal.. and it's kinda sad and emotional. Like, when you're reading a book and there's a really sad part.. think of it like that. Heh. Plus, the chicka is gunna be gone for a few weeks so that bites, I'll miss her. Anyway, I'm going to go do this RP - you lovely people all have a great night, sleep tight.


Food List:
WW Bread (2) - 1pnt.
Butter - 1pnt.
Grilled Chicken Cesar Sandwich - 10pnts.
M&M's stuffed chicken breast - 9pnts. (I can't remember if it's 7 or 9?)
Nacho Chips - 5pnts.
OJ - 1pnt.

27 / 28 pnts used.
0 / 2 activity pnts used.
35 Flex pnts left.

Grilled Cheese and Apple.

So, just for your viewing pleasure I decided to have the Grilled Cheese and apples for breakfast again this morning, it tastes fantastic, honest. I usually use Royal Gala apples because I like their texture, they aren't too crisp, but still give the sandwich a nice crunch. I also use Gouda cheese, and use my cheese slicer to make the layers really thin - prevents me from using too much cheese but at the same time gives me enough to work with to make the layers. I'd recommend doing a bit of cheese, then a layer of apples, more cheese, more apples, more cheese, etc. Start and end with cheese so the bread sticks. And don't flash fry it or anything, cook it on medium because it has to soak the heat through all the layers of apple to warm it up. So good. My only other suggestion would be don't use fake cheese slices when you put apple on, it prolly would taste horrible. You need a stronger cheese like Gouda or Cheddar I'd say. Anyway, the day is pretty boring so far. I'm about to continue an RP with Suz.. she'll be leaving in a few days and then our little game will be on pause. So we have to tie up some loose ends. Hope you are all having a good Sunday, rest lots, cause freakin Monday is just around the corner!

5:40pm Update:
Lori, I'm so glad that you enjoyed the grilled cheese! Heh. I was doubtful when Jen told me to give it a try, but since that day I've had it like.. 7 more times, so it must be good, eh? Anyway, nothing happening here, quiet raining day. Saw Brokeback Mountain last night... it wasn't as good as I was hoping it would be. Kinda slow, very mellow kinda movie. I was impressed by Health though, totally stepped outside his normal dorky cute guy role to play this cowboy. The book, even though it was only like 90pages long was better than the movie in my opinion. (Which is usually the case anyway.) I dunno if I recommend this or not, wasn't horrible, wasn't as fantastic as I was hoping for. I definately enjoyed the book though, so read that.

Out!
Becca.


Food List:
Grilled Cheese & Apple - 5pnts.
Tea - 1pnt.
Pizza - 20pnts.
Popcicle - 1pnt.

27 / 28 pnts used.
0 / 0 activity pnts used.
35 Flex pnts used.

Creativity Returns?

Maybe my creativity is back, or maybe Suz just inspired me to bring it back with all our RPing, reguardless, I've been enjoying the RPs that we've done since her return, and had decided to create a new avatar for my newest character - Kate Madison Langton. (Click on the image to see a larger version.) Hopefully I'll get some stuff posted on my website for the RPs... eventually. Anyway, just wanted to share my creation with all you lovely peeps. This also means that #27 on my 101 Things to do in 1001 Days is being worked on. I've played Kat like.. I dunno.. 5 times now? Here's hoping that I continue to enjoy the character and keep her around. I wont check off #27 until I've had her around a few months.

1:45pm Update:
So, I just made myself a very yummy wrap. Used 2 cooked chicken fingers (3pnts), mixed salad greens (0pnts), a carrot (1pnt), cucumber (I assume 0pnts?), Mirclewhip mixed with BBQ sauce (1pnt - tried not to use too much) and wrapped it all up in a soft tortilla wrap thing. It hit the spot, and it actually had some nutrients and stuff in it - which is big. Because, I suck at getting all my veggies in. Its been a yummy day for food so far, I had my apple grilled cheese for breakfast, and that's always good. Something with chicken planned for dinner I think, maybe some yogurt to snack on. Anyway, I'm out for a bit, gunna go do some more cleanin and then I'm doing some serious RPin. ~winks~

Later,
Becca.


Food List:
Apple - 1pnt.
WW Bread (2) - 1pnt.
Butter - 1pnt.
Cheese - 2pnts.
Garden Salad Chicken Wrap - 7pnts.
Eggs (2) - 4pnts.
WW Bread (2) - 1pnt.
Butter - 1pnt.
Cheese - 1pnt.
Cucumber Salad - 1pnt.
Popcicles (3) - 3pnts.
Crunchers - 4pnts.

27 / 28 pnts used.
0 /0 activity pnts used.
35 Flex pnts left.

It's Friiiiiiiiiiiday!

w00t w00t!
I'm so glad today is Friday, even if it is supposed to rain all weekend - I don't care! I'll do some work at home this weekend, sleep in, whatever. I'm fine with it. My foot is feeling a little better today, again, thanks everyone for the kind words and such.

Not too much is new really, I've been pretty mellow today, just hanging out at work, doin my job.. chit chattin about the Office last night - killed me! Oh Mishy, I know you watched it.

~Scene from The Office last night, after Michael beats up Dwight, and Dwight is upset because he got his ass handed to him by his loser boss...~
Dwight: "I'd like to change my emergency contact..."
Intern Dude: "Ok, to what?"
Dwight: "Instead of Michael just change it to: The. Hospital."
Intern Dude: "Ok.... "
Dwight: "The phone number is, 911."
~Intern dude writes it down while Dwight glares at Michael and then leaves the room.~
Michael: "Yeah, you can just leave it as my name. Cut out the middle man, I'll call the hospital."

This show kills me, Jen and I spent all morning chuckling about it. I love LOVE Jim. The desk in the bathroom, the stupid jokes, it's too funny. I've completely ditched CSI (which some of you may know was one of my fav shows) to watch both the Office and Earl. NCIS is another one of my favorites.. and Medium, as I've said before. Stupid shows, take up too much of my freakin time! The RP with Suz is going pretty well.. we have to put Christian (The vamp) into Torpor... and for some of you right now.. you're thinking.. 'Becca is strange' but, if you didn't know this by now.. then I ask.. WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN? Of course I'm insane.. clearly.. please see website for further documentation of how insane I am. Heh. Anyway, I need to go have lunch now. Be good everyone.

Out!
Becca.

Food List:
Healthy Fudge - 2pnts.
Crunchers - 3pnts.
Crustini - 7pnts.
Tea - 1pnt.

Popcicle - 1pnt.

Egg (2) - 4pnts.

Butter - 2 pnts.

WW Bread (2) - 1pnt.

Bacon (2) - 2pnts.

Crunchers - 2pnts.

Yogurt - 3pnts.

28 / 28 pnts used.
0 / 3 activity pnts used.
35 Flex pnts left.

Wounded.

Apparently, I've hurt my foot so badly that I can't freakin walk without limping and having pain throb in my left heel - owy! Funny though, you think maybe it's a sign of how I'm feeling emotionally? I'm such a fuck up, seriously. ~Sighs~ Anyway, have a good Wednesday everyone, I'll try to update later.

12:15 Update:
So..... now I've eaten TWICE in ONE DAY at McDonalds. I suck. Seriously. I am not having a very good day, and it's no ones fault but my own. I've done it all to myself, I'm letting the stress of everything eat at me, and adding to that stress for god only knows what reason. I don't know what my problem is, and I'm tired, and just want to go home to sleep. Actually, I really want to RP with Suz, cause I had a great time doin that last night with her. I'm going to miss her when she goes for like two months. I just feel very negative today, and that's not helping my situation any - I know, just tell me to shut up - I'm being a whinny pathetic loser who's playing the feel sorry for herself cards. I'm going to shut it now because even I'm sick of listening to myself. Here's hoping I don't screw up and go over pnts today.

6:30pm Update:
I'm feeling better, I had a little heart to heart with Sarah and realized that things maybe weren't as bad as I was making them out to be, and finally, for the first time all day I've been able to breathe without feeling horrible. Thank you very VERY much Sarah. ~huggles tight~ In my pnts I'm right at 28 it seems, I have two activity pnts I can use if I'd like.. but I'm not sure I feel like having anything else. If I had some amazing fruit or something in the house I might have treated myself with that.. but there isn't anything catching my eye really. So, I'm just going to aim for eating nothing for the rest of the night. I'm kinda tired at the moment, just finished cleaning up after dinner, dishes are all done and now I have some laundry to do. I'd be outside helping with the raking if I wouldn't have hurt my heel yesterday - but hobbling around like a Loser outside and getting in the way really isn't my idea of a good time. Screw the extra activity pnts. I'm just proud that I managed to go out for my walks at break. The count down for Dan coming to visit should start soon.. maybe I should like. .make a little sign or something. Heh. How dorky is that? I think I might drag him to see the new Xmen movie.. or maybe The Da Vinci Code.. both movies I want to see - he hated movies btw, but too damn bad! Anyway, I'm going to go get the wash started, have a good night everyone, and thank you all for all the really nice things you've all said.. you guys totally rock!

Out!
Becca.

Food List:
Egg McMuffin - 6pnts.
Chicken Cesar Toasted Deli Sandwich - 11pnts.
Chicken - 4pnts.
Sauce/Oil - 1pnt.
Cheese - 4pnts.
Tortilla wrap - 2pnts.

28 / 28 pnts used.
0 / 2 activity pnts used.
35 Flex pnts left.

P.S. Don't forget to watch the Office tonight, that show cracks me the Hell up.

Wednesday - still no creativity, clearly.

Hey everyone, today is a pretty dull day, not feeling very well at the moment.
Anyway, just coming on here to record my food pnts and such and then go and lay down awhile. I have something I have to do later, and would share the details with you all but I can't because then a certain someone will read this and figure out it's for them and then they'll be sad cause I ruined the surprise. ~Winks~ Anyway, hope you are all having a good day.

8:15pm Update:
I've been craving bacon, eggs and ketchup for like a week now, and so I treated myself to it tonight for dinner and it was fantastic! Heh. I'm such I dork, I know, but I can't help my cravings. Not much is new really, quiet day, nothing of interest to post. Dan has put in the request for his time off so he can come and visit - still terrified, excited, but terrified. I'm trying not to think about it too much, but it seems to be on my mind 24/7. Hopefully that fades away, otherwise by the time he actually gets here I might be crazy.


Food List:
Tea - 1pnt.
Chicken Potpie - 10pnts.
Bun with butter - 4pnts.
Chocolate - 2pnts.
Bacon - 3pnts.
Eggs (2) - 4pnts.
WW Bread (2) - 1pnt.
Butter - 1pnt.
Ketchup - 1pnt.
BBQ Crunchers - 3pnts.

28 / 28 pnts used.
2 / 2 activity pnts used.
35 Flex pnts left.

No title.

My creativity is so lacking that I can't even think of a title besides 'Tuesday' and since I didn't want that, I just wrote no title... why you ask? Because I'm a freak. So, hotel is booked for Dans visit (eep) and my doctors appointment has been made. I need to get ahold of that Katherine chick to talk about the upgrades - apparently she's not in the office? Dunno, left a message for her to call me when she gets in to make an appointment for that. Anyway, I'm thinking of running over to get a Tea or something, I should go to A&P and pick up some food - but I don't know what to get anyway... and don't have $$ to do it.

Anyway, I'm gunna go.

3:20pm Update:
So, I have to say, I feel a bit better about getting those things out of the way. Katherine still hasn't called me back to make an appointment for the condo - I might try her for a 5th time, but really, I've left a message so that should be enough to have her calling me back I'd think. Chinese is cancelled for tonight, hence the cookie and tea I treated myself with - otherwise I would have skipped both of those to save up pnts for tonight. No idea what I'm going to eat instead, no idea what my mother is cooking either - tried to call her to let her know I'd be home but she didn't answer any of the times I tried - so oh well. Grilled cheese or something for me it looks like. Hm, maybe eggs and a bit of bacon.. I could really go for that.

Work is going alright today, quiet as it has been for a little over a week now, but.. alright. I ended up having to send a lot of stuff back to brks since there seemed to be plenty of missed items, but it's fine, doesn't bother me like it used to anymore. We're doing good as a dept. work wise, totally ontop of things which is nice. I hate being rushed all the time. Anyway, my break is almost over, so I'll talk to you all later. Oh wait! Question for you all, anyone know much about the Volks Jetta?? I've seen a few people driving them and wondered if anyone knew any details about the vehicle, if they own one and like it, etc? Alright, now I really am going. Be good.

6:45pm Update:
Hey again, to answer your questions, I guess I'm just wondering how people enjoy their Jetta's, now I'm wondering what they're like on gas, if they've had problems with things breaking, etc. The kinda things you can't just look up online and find out - or the things that people have heard about the vehicle - the things the dealers wont tell you. That kinda thing. I'm not expecting people to do the research stuff for me (cept for Dan a lil bit - but only cause he loves me and knows so much about cars without even lookin shit up. Frankly, I think the boy likes helping me with it.) Just looking for advise, gossip and such.

So, no Chinese food today - which is fine with me. I wasn't really craving it anyway so no big deal. Ending up staying at work late talking in the PLot with some of my co-workers. Just talking about work, our lives, etc - things we aren't able to talk about all day, ya know? It was another sunny warm day out, which is nice for a change. I REALLY need to find myself a pair of black shoes to wear at work, my feet are killin me from wearin my black boots - freakin boots, I hate them. But I have nothing else and am having a hell of a time finding a plain black shoe that I actually like and HAVE in my freakin size. ~curses crappy ass Walmart for not having her size in EITHER of the shoes she liked for weeks now!~ Anyway, I'm going to go and... do.. something? I guess make a list of things I need to buy/do and somehow figure out which things can wait and which have to be done now. My Amex bill rolled in today at a horribly high total - thanks to that $850 car repair. ~Curses Canadian Tire while she's at it~ So, a little over half of that is paid off - just have to wait for my pay cheque so I can pay the other half off. Hopefully in the next two weeks the chq for my taxes comes in and then I can pay my mom for the money I owe her for rent and car insurance. ~Rolls her eyes~ She doesn't charge me much for rent, only like $100, and honestly, if I wasn't saving for the condo and such I'd give her more - just cause she buys all the food and such. But then again, it's not like I don't help around the house or something. We all do. So I'm not like one of those spoiled kids who never help with freakin anything - every weekend (if we're here) I do the whole house cleaning routine and such. And every other night I do dishes - I try to cook now and then but it's hard when I get home at 5pm and everyone wants to eat like right away. Anyway, why am I defending myself again?! ~Laughs~ I'm shutting up and going to watch Gilmore Girls, NCIS and House. Have a fantastic night everyone. Oh, and Mishy.. I totally saw Medium last night and it was freaky! I actually got chills at one point.. excellent show. I've missed it.

Out!
Becca.


Food List:
Chocolate - 1pnt.
Healthy Fudge - 2pnts.
Crustini - 7pnts.
Tims cookie - 4pnts.
Tea - 1pnt.
Turkey Burger - 4pnts.
BBQ sauce - 1pnt.
Potatoes - 3pnts.
Butter - 1pnt.
Popcicle - 1pnt.

25 / 28 pnts used.
0 / 2 activity pnt used.
35 Flex pnts left.

Another day, another dollar.

No time to write at the moment really, I have about five minutes to quickly eat my Crustini before I go back to work - I totally burned my bottom lip with freakin hot cheese! owy.

Anyway, Mishy, Laura's Lent thing went alright, she said she ate a bit of chocolate on the weekend but had a headache so she didn't want to eat too much. No I haven't sold my car yet, kinda waiting until I decide on what kinda car I want (otherwise I couldn't get to work - darn.)

Dan, baby, sugar, Honey.. you're too cute. I kinda figured you'd say something like that. I'll have to remember to buy some whips and chains before we meet - keep you entertained. ~winks~ Anyway, I'll update more later, have to go. Be good everyone.

9:05pm Update:
It's been an.. well, to be honest, I just don't know what kind of day it's been. A Monday. Work was as expected - lets just leave it at that - home was... also, as expected. Uneventful, filled with wasted time and complete, total lack of creativity or motivation. I've done next to nothing since I got home. Had dinner, (pizza was fantastic btw) talked with my mother awhile and then did dishes only to end up laying around and cleaning up a few things here and there to fake myself into thinking I'd accomplished something. I should have been looking at car stuff, or making the list of the millions of things I need to buy. Something, working on my website even - but every time I think of doing something I'm too lazy to actually do it.

Katherine, from the condo peeps called me today, I'm supposed to call her tomorrow and make the appointment for the upgrades and such. I think I'll aim for May 5th, and if that doesn't work, then maybe when Dan comes to visit - we'll see. God, I need sleep or something. Ok, I give up. I'm going to go be lazy for a bit more while I watch Medium and then I'm going to bed. Have a good night everyone.

Out!
Becca.


Food List:
Healthy Fudge stuff (seriously) - 2pnts.
Chocolate - 2pnt.
Crustini - 7pnts.
Pizza - 17pnts.
Turkey - 2pnts.
Mini Eggs - 1pnt.

28 / 28 pnts used.
2 / 2 activity pnts used.
35 Flex pnts left.

Home again.

I'm back! Yay. Heh. All I can think about is having to go back to work tomorrow.. how depressing is that.. well, not ALL I can think about.. my brain is in overdrive trying to keep everything in order lately between the condo and the car, money and payments, trying to figure out my budget and how to make it work - where I can save more. How the meeting with Dan is going to go, this past weekend and planning for that, going out shopping and what I all need to buy and what can wait, price shopping for all the things I want for my condo, budgeting for that, making appointments for the upgrades, to go see the model home, washing my car, taking pictures, listing and selling my car, choosing a new car, shopping around, trying to get a good deal, etc. etc. etc.... the list never freakin ends! I seriously don't know if I'm coming and going lately - but every night comes, followed by the new morning and the continuing list of things on my mind - did I mention I'm tired? ~laughs~

Things went alright this weekend - better than expected. I could list you everything I've eaten for three days - but why? I'll just give you the real short breakdowns so you can see I'm still pretty much on track with the pnts and such. I'm pretty happy with the outcome for the weekend - to say I was worried last week isn't even half of how I was feeling.

Friday:
Total Pnts = 27 used.
2 activity pnts earned.
35 Flex pnts left.

Saturday:
Total Pnts = 28 used.
4 activity pnts earned & used.
5 Flex used, so 30 Flex pnts left.

Today:
So far I'm at 24 / 28 used.
3 activity pnts earned.
and 30 Flex pnts left.

So I'm doin pretty good I think. Saturday I think I spent 3 - 4 hours outside playing with my cousins kids (Wade, Savanah, Delia, Natalie and Emma) Runnin around after them, carrying them around, pushing them on the swings, blowing bubbles, doing the big easter egg hunt.. lots of walking, playing. heh. So I got alot of exercise cause of them. The other activity pnts were earned doing raking, walking and other yard work - my arms are a bit sore today, but nothing horribly bad.

Just wanted to say thanks to everyone for all the nice comments you left. Here's hoping the Dan meeting goes well.. heh. Fingers crossed, but then again, I was thinkin.. if he's a dick and pisses me off I might just have to kick him in the balls and make him cry. Hear that baby?! I'll totally kick you in the balls and make you cry if you make me sad! ~Grins~

Mishy > I bet Laura had a fantastic weekend, finally she got to eat some chocolate. Although, she was thinking maybe she'd stay away from it since the cravings and such seemed to be gone now after so many days. Hope you had a great Easter Chicka, dinner, soon, ok?!

Sarah> Thank you again for the email, and you are totally cute lookin up stuff on those cars for me! I was thinking about them both all weekend, looking at the piccys I got from the dealers of them and I just can't decide. I want to go to a few more dealers and check out their vehicles before I narrow it down to just those two. Plus, I want to see if my cousin can give me an insurance quote for them - who knows, it might be insane! Thank you for all your support though Hun. It means a lot to me.

Ok, I have to run here, stuff to do.
Hope you all had a great day.
Out!
Becca.

Mmmmmm sleep.

HAPPY EASTER!!!

Heh, I found this rather cute piccy on Google and totally stole it for my Blog - common, it's too cute not to share. Just wanted to say a quick hello to everyone, wish you all a fantastic weekend before I head off for mine. I'd really love to be staying home, just don't feel like the visiting and such, I like my own bed, my own space. Ya know what I mean?

Anyway, talked to Dan last night about coming to visit, appears it's going to happen. I'd be lying if I didn't admit that I was terrified. I have no idea what to expect, not sure if we'll hit it off, not sure if he'll like the IRL me.. any advice on how to cut down my fear here? I've done this before, and you'd think meeting people like this would get easier - it's just not.

I went to a couple dealers last night, checked out some cars - finally. The 2006 Hyundai Accent seems to be in my price range, and Richard was a nice sales guy. I'd like to test drive it. Also checked out a 2005 Corolla and a 2006 Mazda 3. I really like the Mazda 3, but I think it's outside of my price range, ya know? We'll see. I'm not sure how much $$ I can come up with for a downpayment, it's hard to know. Since I have to have $$ for the upcoming costs from the condo - have to estimate and guess on everything and then come the Fall the place should be ready and who knows what kinda surprises await me there. ~rolls eyes~ I'm gettin nervous and freakin now. So, I'm going to go and pack for the weekend - you all have an excellent one, ok!

~Tackles Sarah with huggles~ You be good chicka!

Out!

Becca.

Food List:

Man, I gotta do this all on paper this weekend. Stupid calculator.

Nada so far..

But McDonalds is in my future I believe....

0 / 28 pnts used.

0 / 0 activity pnts used.

35 Flex pnts left.

w00t w00t! Tomorrow is a holiday.

Real quick post, cause I have to go and have my shower quick. I'm gone this weekend, I think I'm leaving tomorrow - so it will be another good day of not posting at all. I've managed to save my Flex pnts for this weekend, here's hoping I don't use too many of them. I've never been below 30 Flex left at the end of my week.. and I don't want this week to be any different.

Ok, sorry guys, but I really have to run. I'll try to update later.
Sarah - I wanna see a piccy of your pretty necklace! It looks so cool.
Mishy - Dude, we gotta get together the second I start narrowing down cars so you can help me pick a pretty one, k? Hehe. Plus I gotta give you your book and movie back.

12:38pm Update:
So, I just got back from a 30 minute walk around the block at work here - it's sunny, kinda hot when you're in the sun and I had the time. I know you're supposed to feel refreshed and such after you work out, but I've NEVER felt that. Usually I end up being tired, like now, and I just want to go home and sleep. But NO, since I'm at work I have to spend the next 3 hours working. Bleh. At least we get off work half an hour early today! Yay! I really need to sleep.. I was already tired this morning since I felt like I didn't get any sleep last night, now it's just worse. Having tea with Lori tonight, I've missed her, haven't seen her in a couple weeks. Then I have an RP planned tonight with Suz - we've kinda been putting it off, I don't think either of us has been feeling it lately.. life is just kinda busy for both of us. (More stressful than busy for me, but same result - beats out the creativity) Work is going well today, things are nice and relaxed for a change - I'm actually enjoying the day for the most part. Anyway, have to go back to work. Have a great day everyone, and I'll try to do a post tomorrow before I go back to my Oma and Opa's for the weekend. Be good all.

Out!
Becca.


Food List:
1/2 Muffin (I threw out the stump!) - 4pnts.
Chocolate Eggs - 4pnts.
Crunchers - 2pnts.
Crustini - 7pnts.
Tea (2) - 2pnts.
2 Eggs - 4pnts.
WW Bread (2) - 1pnt.
Butter - 1pnt.
Bacon - 2pnts.
Crunchers - 2pnts.

28 / 28 pnts used.
1 / 3 activity pnts used.
35 Flex pnts left.

Wednesday, almost there.

So, I baked some muffins tonight when I got home, hoping in some way the smell and such would comfort me.. maybe it has, it's just hard to tell. Sorry I took so long to write my update today, it's been a crazy busy day, no time at all today until now. I'm tired, drained from work and the stresses there, and really just want to crawl into bed and go to sleep. I think I went over my pnts today, haven't added everything up, but it doesn't look good. The muffins aren't bad, not sure how many pnts they are - I need to take a look at what I all put into them to decide. My dad seemed to enjoy them though, I only split one small one with my mom, since I new I was either right at the brink or gettin close to the end of my pnts for the day. It's been raining here all day, I haven't started the car search yet. I'll try to write more tomorrow. Thanks for all the messages you all left, you all rock, have I mentioned that lately?

Out!
Becca.


Food List:
WW Bread (2) - 1pnt.
Honey Butter - 1pnt.
Crunchers - 2pnts.
Cookies - 5pnts.
Egg Salad sandwich (1/2) - 4pnts.
Turkey sandwich (1/2) - 4pnts.
Pasta Salad stuff - 4pnts.
Chicken in sauce - 4pnts.
Potato - 1pnt.
Broc - 0pnts.
1/2 Muffin - 3pnts (guessing)

28 / 28 pnts used.
1 / 1 activity pnts used.
35 Flex pnts left.

Torture Tuesday.

I don't want to be here, I should have stayed in bed.
I'll try to update later, no time now, just wanted to record food.
Hope you are all having a better day, a better week.

6:10pm Update:
So, today was.. quiet, to say the least. I wont go into details because frankly, I don't want to. But it's been a rough few days at work - that should say it all for some of you. I'm currently waiting for the Mortgage guy from RBC, hopefully he has something positive to say about Leasing a vehicle.. or even what my options are. I'm nervous, which is pretty normal for me. ~Laughs~ Whatever, once he gets here and we start talking I should lighten up - hopefully - I can't even remember what he looks like. Nothing new or worth mentioning really, weekend is almost here, Easter is almost here. Have an RP planned for later tonight with Suz, we have to wrap it up for a couple months since she's moving to California (sp?). Anyway, guess I should go and wait for the RBC dude, have a great night everyone. If I have the time, and motivation, I might come and post on here later after the 'meeting' so have a great night just incase I don't muster up enough energy to update you all.

8:10pm Update:
The RBC Mortgage Dude just left, he freakin ROCKS. I forgot how much fun the boy was, how much he liked to joke around and chit chat. Seriously, he was here from 6:30pm to 8:00pm and most of it was spent just generally talking about life, money, the condo, cars, etc. He's just a really great guy, who talks about life instead of just numbers and makes you feel like the bank actually gives a damn. (Which I know isn't true - but at the very least, HE gives a damn. Ya know?) I just really enjoyed talking to him, and feel better about things now that I have. I'm able to Lease for the range I was looking at, and I kinda have an idea of what I'd be looking for now - which is nice. Instead of flying blind, ya know? So, it's just nice to have that worry off my mind for now. I do however think I spent the entire time blushing, giggling and being generally girly. I can't help it! He's so freakin cute, and jokes around so much. Heh. He's married though, so it was all just innocent fun and such, ya know? Right, I'm gunna shut up now and go do some stuff.. have an excellent night. Things are looking up! Yay.

Out!
Becca.

Food List:
WW Bread (2) - 1pnt.
Honey Butter - 2pnts.
Tea - 1pnt.
Crunchers - 2pnts.
Crustini - 7pnts.
WW Bread (2) - 1pnt.
Meat Sauce - 6pnts.
Butter - 1pnt.
Chocolate - 2pnts.

23 / 28 pnts used.
0/3 activity pnts used.
35 Flex pnts left.

Natasha Bedingfield - Unwritten

This song seemed to cheer me up this morning on my drive in, and so I thought I'd share it.

I am unwritten,

Can't read my mind

I'm undefined

I'm just beginning

The pen's in my hand

Ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you

Open up the dirty windowLet the sun illuminate the words

That you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance

So close you can almost taste it

Release your INHIBITIONS

Feel the rain on your skin

No one else can feel it for you

Only you can let it inNo one else, no one else

Can speak the words on your lips

treat yourself in words unspoken

Live your life with arms wide open

Today is where your book begins

The rest is still unwritten

I break tradition

Sometimes my tries

Are outside the lines

We've been conditioned

To not make mistakes

But I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you

Open up the dirty window

Let the sun illuminate the words

That you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance

So close you can almost taste it

Release your INHIBITIONS

Feel the rain on your skin

No one else can feel it for you

Only you can let it in

No one else, no one else

Can speak the words on your lips

treat yourself in words unspoken

Live your life with arms wide open

Today is where your book begins

Staring at the blank page before you

Open up the dirty window

Let the sun illuminate the words

That you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance

So close you can almost taste it

Release your INHIBITIONS

Feel the rain on your skin

No one else can feel it for you

Only you can let it inNo one else, no one else

Can speak the words on your lips

treat yourself in words unspoken

Live your life with arms wide open

Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin

No one else can feel it for you

Only you can let it in

No one else, no one else

Can speak the words on your lips

treat yourself in words unspoken

Live your life with arms wide open

Today is where your book begins

The rest is still unwrittenThe rest is still unwritten

Oh, yeah, yeah

Monday Morning.

Another week, another day at work. Oh, can you feel the joy.
I'm not sure what my problem is this morning, but going to work is the last thing on my to-do list, I seem to be carrying around this horribly negative mood at the moment, feeling very down about myself, about life, about everything. Dan and I are trying to plan meeting eachother for the first time next month, and all weekend I was good with it (as good as can be expected) and then suddenly this morning I'm back to freaking out about it. I sound depressing, I know, and if someone was here maybe they'd kick me.. then again, I'm not really showing it all that much IRL, I'm pretty good at just hanging low so no one notices. Meeting tonight with my Mortgage guy from RBC. Here's hoping he has some good news for me. Alright, off to work.

Out!
Becca.


Food List:
WW Bread (2) - 1 pnt.
Butter - 1pnt.
Mini Eggs (10) - 3pnts.
Orange - 1pnt.
Harvey's Veggie Burger - 7pnts.
M&M Stuffed Chicken - 7pnts.
Potato - 4pnts.
Broc - 0pnts.
Butter - 2pnt.
Sweet Pita - 4pnts.

28/28 pnts used.
2/3 activity pnts used.
35 Flex pnts left.